This guest post series has been amazing. Great tips and encouragement from incredible women who have shared their hearts and their journeys as new mommas. Thank you to everyone who has participated so far! This week’s post comes to you from Megan of Little Bean Baby. I happened upon her blog, this post in particular, and was so touched by how personal and well-written it was. She shares lots of mommy moments on her blog – from the touching to the funny (like this post on things you can’t do easily with a baby) – featuring her little cutie Mason. Enjoy this lovely post and check out her blog when you can!
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I cried today because you are growing up so fast, and time is moving so quickly, and I am not sure that I had a chance to take in every little moment with you this past year. I cried because I can’t stop time, even though I want to, it is one of the many things that I just can’t control.
I cried today because you cried as I was leaving you at preschool and hearing you cry for me makes every part of my body ache. I cried because every time I leave you, even though I know you love school, I feel guilty beyond all belief that I am not the one taking care of you each day.
I cried because I actually enjoy going to work while you are at school but I can’t help but think that I am missing out on being a part of the amazing world you live in every minute of the day. I cried because our few hours together each day are so short, and it takes everything I have to not to hug you for each second I am with you…
I cried because this world is so big and can be so mean and I can’t even imagine my sweet boy being a part of such a cruel world. I cried because I can’t even fathom the thought of someone picking on you or letting you down, and I know I can’t stop either from happening, no matter how hard I try.
I cried because everyone told me this year would go by so fast and I am devastated that it is over, all of our firsts of this year have passed, my baby is a big boy, and is growing up faster than I ever thought possible.
I cried today because my first experience of being pregnant, giving birth, and taking care of a newborn is long gone and I know that with the second baby it won’t feel as new and I won’t be so blissfully clueless.
I cried because no matter what anyone says, I will always feel like I didn’t hold you enough when you were a baby, or sing to you as much as I should have, or read to you everyday, or do enough tummy time…I should have used every waking minute those first few months to snuggle and be with you.
I cried today because being a parent in this world is harder than I thought and I am still figuring out how to be a parent in a world where I still feel like a child. I cried because my mistakes now effect the life of someone else and I am so so scared to make any mistakes with you.
I cried because you filled my heart with so much joy the minute you entered this world and I can’t imagine a world without you in it or even the world before you were born.
I cried because when I am with you my heart is so full that it can’ t take anymore love yet I somehow find a way to love you more each day.
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